No one will ever love me. And I am too afraid of relationships and intimacy to let anyone in. And i I have severe germ phobia. Plus, the only ones who will date me are scum.
I just want a normal person, with a career (so the aren't a smooch), kind, loving, affectionate. sSome one who is honest with me. And we "get each other" and are attractive to eachother. Someone who can look past my mental ilness & my being disabled.
but i am 44 & running out of time. If I ever do overcome my intamacy issues & germ phobia, by the time I do I'll be too old to attract somene like the above.