My anxiety does ramp up when I try to call... yesterday I had the phone in my hand but I was paralyzed from making the call.

They came out to see me this morning to make sure I was alright. They told me that Monday if the van doesn't show I should call them, which I think I can do... it is (for some reason... not logical) the embarrassment of calling the van company and then having to face them when they come that is part of the problem.

You are right about the arthritis and movement. I know this and yet it is still hard to fight the urge. I am going to try to stay active today.