I was diagnosed a couple of years ago but just now really learning to accept it. I look back over my life and wonder how long I've been this way. I was a very self destructive teenager. Made alot of bad choices and all I was ever diagnosed with was depression. I wonder if I had been treated when I was younger if I would I finished high school and made something of myself. So I can understand the what if's with just being diagnosed. Hope they can get you on the right meds and things get better for you soon.