aaah Rhia,, remembering is the first step to healing. i have heard it said that : as long as we hold onto the past, it is still in the present. i know you have a long long looooong way to go to forgiving your mom for her silence, the whole family for the conspiracy of silence, but that silence is broken for you, now. I'm glad that you could share with us, and hope your healing is swift and complete~!!! do drop a line now and then, with what you learn, about healing? Gus