You are just scared to move past where you are right now. where you have been for so long. I have noticed some changes in you since i left and came back. You are scared of being let down in life again. you say SI never lets you down but i remember the days when it was the thing that let you down the most. I am here to help you move past this. i am here to help you just like everyone else on this site. the real question is are you willing to help yourself and put forth the effort to bring yourself out of this like i have always known you could do. its time