My stress level is beyond belief! I know my increase in pain is a direct result. Today is a day of tears- regret, remorse, refusal to quit, yet having a hard time to stay on task, focused and optimistic. Psychological pain causes worse physical pain; Chronic physical pain causes psychological pain- how do I get off this roller coaster??? I am dealing with waves of emotion that make everything difficult- The anxiety causes me to be unable to relax- pain everywhere in my neck, back and shoulders; the heartache and crying gives me a headache; the trying to push through and still do some work to change the situation means searching the internet endlessly- sitting in a chair for hours- gotta do what I can before the pain turns my brain to mush- the leg and back pain just get worse. But to take a muscle relaxer means foggy brain; So in order to think I have to deal with the pain; If I deal with the pain I feel unproductive- and deadlines mean I don't have any time to waste!