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Old Sep 15, 2010, 01:20 PM
AmanTravelling AmanTravelling is offline
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Originally Posted by Rohag View Post
Hello, AmanTravelling! It seems you are assuming an enormous load of responsibility for the feelings and even achievements of your family. By no means do I challenge the reality of your feelings; you feel the way you feel. I am curious, though: as far as you can discern, how did you come to so keenly feel this way about your family members? Have they told you? Did someone else tell you? Were you raised to see yourself responsible for the feelings and success of others?

Of course, there's no need to share anything you don't want here. I personally am skeptical of the possibility of simply reasoning one's way out of depression (hasn't worked for me, at least). Nevertheless, I hope any attempt to think about things will grant you a degree of clarity in your struggle with possible courses of action.
I'm not responsible - but my influence is (was) negative, and that is what I want to protect them from.
I told my wife how I felt and she forbid me leaving (thank goodness)
I spoke to my children too - they say they need me although they said they weren't sure what for - we also escape using humour.
I was in bed when my son left for school on Monday and he thought I was asleep. I caught him just watching with a sad face then he left for school - I new he cared for me. (tears again!)
I'm staying and my family want me to tell them stuff sooner.
Thanks for talking.
Thanks for this!
Rohag