Not sure what kind of Spirituality you practice, but I understand needing a counselor who is in zinc with your Spirituality. Someone who will address both. Very difficult to find, I know. Even worse when you've been burned already. Sometimes people who address spirituality neglect the psychology of the whole thing. Is there a practitioner or spiritual leader you can go to? Someone of the same faith as you might be able to give you direction. Maybe even contact NAMI and see if they could come up with a name for you...

Medicaid sux. I am on disability as well, but fortunately my H has decent insurance. Still my co-pays for T's and Pdoc's are $25 a session. Meds cost about 150/month. That's a lot to be spending on myself. I couldn't imagine how hard it would be to come up with more money.

I really hope things work out for you, I am so sorry you're in this predicament.