ok, WEll I sorta understand the not wanting to take "drugs" yes they can alter our outward person. but then again, how do you truly know what you were like before you were deperssed. We are not meant to stay that way all the time. .

Being deperssed is a lack of a chemical in the brain, Certian drugs can enhance the outflow of that drug, and also can let you keep the creative side you are so worreid about lossing..
I know I hated the fact that I may become happier, for I had never been fully happy.. But you know, I like having some happines in my life now..

Since you do not want help, may I ask why, you do not just go and talk to somoene aobut the deperssion???
Is there a reason you do not want to do that either or did you fiqure since the drugs did not work, talking would not work either??

Just concerd is all ok.
Peace OUT

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- G.K. Chesterton
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