So sorry to hear you're having such a hard time lately. It seems as if a LOT of people are, including many of the people I know offline. I was in a horrible mood myself recently but, with the help of friends here and offline, and a lot of work I've been doing on myself, I feel I am finally turning a corner.

I hope things start getting better for you very soon. Meanwhile, your friends are here and willing to lend an ear and a (((((hug))))).