Hello El,

I can't really give any advice here because my family apart from my dad who is passed, are abject A**H***** and I don't have anything to do with them. Mum is abusive and always has been and is very bitter at the world and everyone in it. Brother thinks he is the patriarch but he is physically and emotionally abusive and sister is a drug addict who also sells drugs and I look at them all and think "they think I'm **** and they are this bad so what am I?!" I must be the worst of all people to walk the earth and I don't deserve any good in my life and what is the point in being here at all? These people know how to hurt and cause pain. They knew how close dad & I were but both mum and brother flatly refused to allow me to say anything at Dads funeral. I hate them, they knew how much that would hurt me. Why do people do those things?