I have a daughter who is a paranoid schizophrenic, her father is a sociopath, she is on meds now and is living quite positively apparently but we have no contact. She fully and completely believes that I harmed her as a child. Though I didn't and she used to plan my death and her pretense at being totally distraught (I found a letter she wrote to me) telling me how she has planned everything. She went to my employer with her claims and I lost my job. She told everyone in town and I was treated like a pariah. To my face she was loving.

There were so many knives in my back I couldn't lean on a wall. People who used to be friends refused to even look at me, I didn't exist. She then promptly left town.

No matter what throughout my whole life my father was insistent on integrity. We were schooled in it as well as other very particular ideals, and in less than a month she destroyed my life completely. The reason? I ruined her life by refusing to marry her father all she wanted was for us to be back together as a family. I told her I left him for a reason, he was meanly cruel he tried to make me abort her, he didn't want a child. But apparently I ruined her life so she decided to ruin mine.

A couple of years later I had to take my grandson away from her because she was abusing him terribly, physically and mentally, emotionally worst of all. He lived with me for some years and then she wanted to rebuild a relationship with him and refused to do so while he was with me (I was the one person she couldn't snow or fool). So he was taken away from me and I had him on holidays only. My heart broke. She left him again for 7 years with piecemeal contact, breaking his heart. Waited until we were close again and then came in again and took him away again, aided every time by a ridculous family services commission.

This is the thing that now has broken my heart. He was doing well until she came back in and he has now been diagnosed as sociopathic. And she told me and others that she has done it all very deliberately. Her only desire was to ruin me completely. And she has and continues to do so. She told mum and brother the same story, they believed her. Sister knew better and didn't believe her. But one person wasn't enough to stop all the others from believing her stories.

I have mdd, gad, agoraphobia, panic attacks and recently diagnosed as DID. Physically I have epilepsy and fm & ms, diabetes, psoriasis (since I was 3). My old doctor believes that they are firmly originated from stress (he is a holistic dr and believes mind and body are inextricably linked in illness). Wow haven't discussed this for quite a while.

Since he has had more contact with her he is no longer speaking to me and it is probably the one thing that is still pushing me to take my life. He was the one I was living for. I have a fight there because I have died twice and promised I wouldn't take my life, that I would live until I was called home. Life is so incredibly painful and I will think twice before I come back here again. The world is beautiul but the people in it can be so intensely cruel.