Hey my friend I go through all these same emtions and actions. I am also perceived as a totally heartless ***** when i am so far from it that it is scary. There is not one thing you do that I don't do which actually makes me feel better as it is clearly not just "us" that have these issues. I am hoping that I can find the correct support and combination of medication now that I have joined PS.

I got a rude awakening this week when I realised that I am getting angry with my daughter for behaving exactly like I do. It is scary I know Suga but we will get through it.

Have you ever tried Topamax or Tegretal. I like the sound of Topamax in that it should not add to the weight issues. Although the doped up state sounds a bit of an issue. Tegretal seems to have good results too although not widely used?