I can sympathize with you feel. I have a lot of trouble trusting people and that has been a problem for me in therapy. Something that I have been able to use to get past this with medical professionals is to tell myself "This person is very educated. They are smarter than you. It is okay to give them the reins for awhile, because they know how to use them.". If I start to suspect that the medical professional is not as smart or educated as I originally thought, all trust and respect I had for them goes out the window.

I only saw my T for a few months, but during that time she constantly forgot my husband's name and twice called me by someone else's name in session. She frequently forgot things that I told her and we often had to go over the same things a few times because she'd forget that we already talked about it. She took notes during session, but I can't imagine she ever looked at them, even though she had an hour of free time before my session every week (she told me). Eventually I just stopped going because it seemed like she didn't have a clue.

I've been told that my expectations are too high and that I am too critical of people's flaws (including my own), so I don't know if my reaction was inappropriate or if she really was a space cadet. I am not suggesting that you just stop showing up to therapy, because maybe that was not necessarily something good to do. Could you try talking to your T about it? Maybe it is something you could work through together.