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Originally Posted by Lets Talk
Amy,
I hope that you feel "up" soon. I have had 3 days this week where the BPD was raging through me so bad I thought I was going to explode.....needless to say I stabbed the heck out of my journal...sorta helped...but probably not a good thing to do again....right now I am on the down swing....so I'm tired and emotionally drained....
Will keep you in my thoughts and prayers  |
Wow...poor journal - but I get it.
When I'm raging I write such bizarre things in my journal. When I read and reflect back I can't help thinking, "What kinda life is this?" Maybe by stabbing the journal you got to kill the bad stuff?
I am better. Thanks for asking. More than anything I'm ashamed of myself. Living with this emotional pain has made employment very difficult. I've always thought that in the end I would become a big success. That my education and skills would come together and I'd find that perfect occupation and flourish. That never happened.
Now I'm resigning myself to the fact that I'll probably get a job which doesn't offer much creativity or intellectual stimulation. I need to make money and I don't have the luxury to explore anymore.
It is what it is.