Geez, I get the sense as i read your post that theres not a whole lot of feeling "contained and held" in your therapy? I could be wrong, its just what I felt as I read, you mention that from the get go your T said shes not into long term therapy alongside the forgetting things even though everyone forgets things, but if its coupled with the original feeling of not being there for long it can perhaps just add to the floating feeling? I know for me it was important to know its me that says when therapy is over, the option for long term was there if I needed it.