I isolate all the time. But when I do my mind becomes its own worst enemy. I think of ways to hurt myself or suicide. I have conversations in my head with other people that I know. I like to be alone. It does not bother me, but it does hurt me. I work in retail so I must talk to customers all the time. This I believe is my saving grace. Every day I must force myself to go outside when I am not working, but usually I lose the battle and stay inside. It takes energy to go outside, which I do not have. I much more comfortable to be by myself.