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Originally Posted by Sannah
Is the shame making you want to run from all of this? I don't think that you did anything wrong MUE. What happened was that your feelings came out in group as did everyone else's. I think that when we grow up in a dysfunctional family we are shamed for having any feelings because feelings get in the way of a dysfunctional family (they get in the way of those in charge who, BTW are allowed to have feelings but they are the only ones).
I hope you get to a point where you believe that you are allowed to have your feelings no matter what they are. We all get angry, we all go off. When I go off I apoligize and work it through with whoever I need to.
Please don't continue to hide with your feelings.  |
I don't know what's making me want to run from all of this. I'm still angry and disgusted. Disgusted with the group I'm in, disgusted with all the coddling and beating around the bush. I'm disgusted that I lost my cool and lashed out. I'm ashamed that I had no empathy for her, even when she was crying. It's soooo not like me at all.
I know that I don't want to see T until I see what the notes say about the group session....I am afraid of what he thinks of me and what I did...and I want to be able to process whatever it is that's stated...see how others react and try to move forward somehow based on that. I feel stuck at the moment. And angry.