Thanks for all the replies first of all they were all of great length and insight, I enjoyed them.

Well. I thought I'd respond to Rapunzel's because Lady Dragnus and Heidu I already talked to or responded to them in PM.

The test on this site I have taken before and scored very high as well, although I have never used it more than once but I think that if I did I'd subconsciously rig the test so that I'd get a high score just so that I could say "Yea.. wow I am messed up guys, I got a 78". I don;t think doing that test over and over is very accurate but that's just my opinion.

"Ian, consider how creative you are when you get really bad. My guess is probably at the extreme end you don't get much done."

I beg to differ on this one actually. When I am at my lowest point I often am not in control of my body or mind. So what generally happens is I start writting things down without thinking about what I am saying and I can't stop. It's as if I am possessed for those few hours that it happens.

Sometimes can be really quite freaky and others very awesome because I write things that I read the next day that I'm like "Wow, that is powerful". You are right in the sense that I don't anything done in the real world like washing dishes or laundry or going to the store, etc. But I do get creative things done and write some pretty amazing stuff. Also I get high off my emotions I think. I like the feeling of mental pain that turns physical and so when my I at my ultimate low my mind is racing and brings on many emotions related to different subjects. So I experience extreme highs and lows of things like pain and love. It's incredible, I wonder why I am addicted to it though.

Ian

Death Calls Us All, How Long We Prolong It Is Our Choice