If only that were true. I have been like this since I was aware I'd say i have been depressed since child hood as I remember alway crying and being afraid. It was not until I was in my 20s after having my 3rd child that I was told what I was depressed all those years I just thought that something was badly wrong with me it didnt help my parents calling me crazy. I am in my 50s now oh if only it were true and I could have grown out of the awful episodes I have had. The last 9 months have been hell for me its only in the last week I have been able to feel as if I am comming out of it. I am able to bare how I feel but am anxious and weepy but can control it to a certain extent I just dread sinking in that deep mire again. Worst of all is the lonelyness and the feeling of failure and being overcome by feeling that i dont want and cant stop. It makes everything seems worse and larger than it is even the simplest things seem to big for my mind to cope with. I keep myself going by thinking right here right now you are coping it was worse before and you never know there are better days on the way. I do remember short phases of my life where I coped well but they are so few. Someone sent me a poem when I told them how I had been feeling and they said they didnt understand then send me a poem with music. It was about choosing Happyness. If only it was that easy. If I could I would choose Happiness but how do you do that?