Want an0ther baby,quite badly,but can't have 1 on purpose. Not with all my "challenges" it's selfish. I thought if I had actually had an accident (which my body is pointing at) that I could have 1 guilt-free. I know I'm n0t too old, it's just that I've decided to be on my own,but was silently hoping my x left me a prezzie before I broke up with him. Guess n0t hey. Now to get over it,and on with it... I suck, I hate my hope,coz I always got to be so unreasonable, work myself into a frenzy over the impossible. PT52, I understand,and appreciate what you're saying,but please understand that I ALWAYS hope for stuff I can't or shan't have! Maybe I should stop hating hope and hate me instead! Grrr