I get angry when I think about what could have been avoided in my life had I been treated a long time ago. I was a horrible teenager....I managed to get through high school and go to college,but my progress was one step forward and two steps back, all cycling around my state of mind. The person I think I hurt the most was my family and it makes me hate myself. I wish I could go back and at least applogize for my actions, but I have done to much damage to some people...I dont think it would matter. I would move my family to start over where nobody knew me thinking that would make everything better, but it didnt. Only treatment. I have to drive and hour and a half away to see my doctor, but it is like going to chemo...you just have to do it, or else.