Welcome Miss Laura!!! I can understand having difficulty wrapping your mind around being BP. I was dx 2 years ago and I still find myself in denial at times. I know there has been a big change in my life since I was dx. It has been a bit of a rocky road trying to find the right meds but I have hope to living a relatively normal life. So again welcome to the group and if you are dx with bipolar we are here to listen and give the best advice we can.