It is interesting that you mention a fight between my parents. When I was younger, my parents did have an especially bad fight one night where I somehow thought this meant they were getting a divorce. My mom might have gone for a drive after the fight because she has a tendency to do that to cool down. I do remember my dad coming up and comforting me and telling me they weren't going to get a divorce. It was kind of a one time thing. My parents do disagree and have little fights, but this was big. I have no idea what it was about.

My issues probably are about control, and for some strange reason anger makes me feel in control (when in reality, no one really has control during a fight). I feel like when I get angry, it's sometimes a response to me protecting myself before someone else can hurt/leave me. Like, if I leave you first, you can't leave me.

Thank you for your reply, it has really helped me explore the issue some more. I really appreciate it!