So I came home today with a note on my door from the school's social service person. Shes not the kind that comes and takes your kid away or anything. But more of the helping out kind of person. Well, my insurance lapsed. It's goverment insurance called passport. Well it is pending on approval and my son has'nt had his Vyvanse scince monday because it costs $160 for 30 pills and we just don't have that. I guess my son was being disruptive today and his teacher asked him why. He told her it ws because he did'nt have his medicine and it was too expensive for us. Well his teach called the socail service lady and se came out but we were gone. The note said she had to speak to us about our son's meds. So I called her and she said they questioned my son. ANd he tols them he did'nt like taking a bath because of the mold on the wall. Which is kind of my fault because we have alittle mold on our wall and it freaks me out. Everytime I go to take a shower I panic b/c of the mold and I tell my husband about it so now my son has a little fear of the mold spot on the bathroom wall. He also told her he did'nt like brushing his teeth (he don't but we make him do it anyway) so she goes and gives him all kinds of toiletries to bring hom. I'm talking deoderant, soap, shampoo, tooth brushes toothpaste. All that. Now I am feeling like they think I am not taking good enough care of my son. And from past thing I have seen that school do, they have me scared. I have a friend who works 2 jobs and takes care of 4 kids and and her husband works a really hard job with 12+ hours a day. And her house is'nt nasty but it's not super clean either. Well one day while she was at work, they went to her house and seen it was cluttered and went to her work and tols her if she did'nt get it clean, they were going to take her kids away. So she had to miss 3 days of her jobs to clean her house. It was'nt even that dirty! These people in this town are like that. And the make my kid feel dirty and send him home with hygeine things. Like we can't afford them. Then I am scared they are going to just come in my home and see dishes in the sink or dirty clothes in the living room or something like that and take my kid away. I hate this town. All these people in it are on some kind of commitee at the school or the school board and they all know everything about the stuff that goes on with the kids. My boy scout treasurer took me aside one day and said "I know you're family is going through hard times. So if you can't afford such and such that's ok" No one at school even knows about that other than the counseler. Now the whole scout group knows abou my financial situation. I hate it here. I was having a good day with my mental stuff and was actually feeling optimistic about things and now I am all paranoid and nervous. My mouth is staying dry and I am so shakey. My back hurts. And I am having panic attacks and stupid obsessive thoughts. I am pissed off cause they interviewed my son without me knowing about it. And now I look like a bad parent.