(((((zoo)))))

I'm sorry you're not doing well today. How are you now? Do you have an image of T inside of you that you can hold on to? Can you picture the two of you connecting? That often helps me when I'm struggling with strong feelings. I also agree with katlover that you could call not-T if you need to, since she sounded caring and compassionate.

I know it's hard to be calm when you are worried about funding for therapy. I hope that everything will work out okay for you.

I posted before I read your last post. Six months is a long time. You don't know what will happen after that. Maybe you'll get another 6 months? Yes, it's okay to not want to EVER have to say goodbye to T. I know that feeling well. That part of you has every right to feel that way about your T. Expressing those feelings will help. The reality is that we never know how long we will "have" anyone in our lives, but the impression they make on us, and the love they give us will last as long as we live.