I think I understand where you're coming from, and many others on this forum will "get it" also. I feel the same way about my therapy and my T. I can't bear to think of it ending for any reason. Like, what if T gets sick, or dies? I hope it's all right to type that without a trigger warning. I don't really understand why the thought of losing T is on a par with losing a member of my family.

Your T gives you unconditional love, and that's habit-forming! I know how wonderful it feels. But it's scary to want and need it so much, and to realize that T could leave for one reason or another. But the ultimate goal of therapy is to be able to give to yourself what T is giving you. It's a slow process. I think it's worth the risk of being attached to a T, uncomfortable feelings and all.

I'd also suggest talking with your T about your feelings. He could probably reassure you that he's not going to give up on you, and that he truly likes working with you.