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Originally Posted by goldenme
I get angry when I think about what could have been avoided in my life had I been treated a long time ago. I was a horrible teenager....I managed to get through high school and go to college,but my progress was one step forward and two steps back, all cycling around my state of mind. The person I think I hurt the most was my family and it makes me hate myself. I wish I could go back and at least applogize for my actions, but I have done to much damage to some people...I dont think it would matter. I would move my family to start over where nobody knew me thinking that would make everything better, but it didnt. Only treatment. I have to drive and hour and a half away to see my doctor, but it is like going to chemo...you just have to do it, or else.
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Hi- I also find my past issues financial & otherwise to be very difficult to deal with. I have done an unbelievable amount of financial damage to my family, but its water under the bridge and I know I would not have done that if I was not bipolar or had been diagnosed decades ago.
I am still in amazement that other people have the same problems caused by the mania as me. I felt so alone for so long.I just couldn't imagine that anyone else would do such crazy things. Luckily my therapist is only 10 minutes away and I will finally have my med.evaluation next week. Thanks for sharing with me and I hope you have a good weekend.
