Hey PAYNE1,

I have spoken to friends about my depression and they have mostly all turned their backs on me. I only have a small group of friends now and only 2 of them know. Most of my friends are work friends and that is another reason to keep my mouth shut. I hate people talking about me and that is what they are doing.

I don't want to be treated any differently and I fear some will. Which is NOT what I want. I want people to just think of me as "Laura" NOT "ill"

My folks will find out soon enough I fear as willl my sister. I have not told my other half as we have only been going out a short period of time neary 2 months. He knows I have depression, but that's about it. He talks a lot to my sister and I don't want her told by anyone. So he has been deliberately not been told. I so need him though. We haven't seen each other in a week as we live in different cities. Seeing him on Saturday though.

I know, I should just chill out as many people have told me but I just can't