I feel like maybe i have PSTD, wasn't diagnosed but match the symptoms recently. I would appreciate any help you guys can give me... I wrote a lot, hope you get through reading it all

I am feeling extremely distressed. I saw a therapist for 3 months and now I've moved to a country where I can't really afford a therapist and at the same time, I don't trust the mental health system here. This is what I was diagnosed with:

1. ADHD
2. Depression

Here is what I'm having issues with:

1. stuck in the past, I also get stuck in my emotions when someone is rude to me.
2. I was sexually molested by my brother in law who also manipulated me and at the same time got my sisters(i have 2) against me in order to isolate me. I told my mom this a month ago now that I'm almost 27 and her response was more of shock + "why didn't you tell me this before? " and now when I tell her how hurt I am at her response. SHe says " well, if you would have told me this earlier I could have done something. What do you want me to do now?"
This really makes me angry. Makes me feel like I don't have anyone to support me.

My mom also said that no one would believe me, only my parents would, which I believe is true…

3. My dad is extremely sick. He is almost bedridden after a few strokes and that disturbs me. He was also very emotionally abusive and controlling while I was growing up. As a child, he was my favorite and he always supported and protected me, but the moment I became a teenager, he started emotionally abusing me, which really confused me and I ended up isolating myself because I was in a dysfunctional family where at the same time I was being sexually molested, had really mean sisters, had my parents always criticizing me and telling me how i really need to change because my behavior is bad (but it was because my sisters were always mean and they'd always go make a huge deal out of everything I did to my parents.. such as, if i didn't want to share my cd with them, I was really bad and I didn't have a heart… etc..) and I was also not allowed to have any friends at all. I was so depressed while growing up.

3. Now that I'm older, I can't get away from the past. For years I carried the guilt and secrecy of the sexual molestation because I kept thinking I was stupid and it was my fault that this happened and now I feel angry that I got manipulated and I'm angry at my past, I'm also angry at the fact that I can't build close relationships anymore, I'm too scared to.

4. I also just exited a relationship where my ex was emotionally abusive and with him, I started feeling like I was losing myself. I am a very logical person and whenever I found out things he was doing wrong he turned it around on me saying "think about it. Your logic is so flawed. whats wrong with you?" He did this on many occasions and always had to make all decisions. He betrayed me and turned it around on me claiming me to be crazy. I actually did start feeling crazy, I started losing myself, I didn't know who I was anymore with him. I'm still getting over that relationship.

I also have anxiety issues, although they have gone down a bit after discussing with the therapist who told me I didn't consider my feelings because I was taught to take care of others feelings.

Now I have moved in with my parents for a little bit and everything just comes all back in my head. I just can't escape the past. ITS KILLING ME, mentally, physically, emotionally.

PLEASE HELP!

I'm so angry at the past and at the effect it has had on me now that I've grown up. I feel so alone and isolated. I don't feel like I can open up to anyone. My parents are extremely critical, they criticize everything in me, first I used to be super thin and I needed to eat, now that I have grown up and I weigh 150 for a 5'8, I need to lose weight… its like there's always something I need to fix about myself. I'm too emotional, I'm too this and that.. everything is just wrong with me all the time. Thats how they make me feel. What also makes me angry is that they instill a lot of fear in me. Everytime I try to do something they have fear about, where they're concerned about me, they put it in me saying "DONT DO XYZ or THIS WILL HAPPEN. IT Can happen, what will you do then". UGH! i just wished I had some support! I feel terrible!