ok got the call that my sesson is still on for monday i'm still terified.but i want to go sit in her office cant i just tell her i dont need to see her but just her office.she would probibly say something crazy like maybe it is the fact that she is with me that makes me feel so safe.she doesnt know about how the mother use to lock me in my rrom and how safe it use to feel to me.in fact i thought about that a lot when i started sitting on the floor in her office.i use to spend a lot of time sitting on the floor in my room next to my door.it kind of feels the same.the mother would never come in my room i was safe.locked in or not i was safe