(((((((((granite)))))))))))

I've actually told T a few times that I just need the office, not him. Because sometimes, that feels true. It's safe there, and quiet, and I can lay on his couch and know that nothing can hurt me while I'm in there.

Granite, I am scared before EVERY. APPOINTMENT. Three years into therapy, with a T that I totally trust! T and I talk about it sometimes...he says that maybe I am scared to go there and "meet myself". Maybe that's it. Lately, I've felt a little scared through my whole session. I tell T a lot that if I didn't like him so much, I would SO not be able to drag my scared self to therapy.

I hope Monday comes quickly, and that you get to sit on the floor and feel safe