Nikki,

Sorry I didn't reply sooner; the last time I read this, I was so tired and barely on the planet, but here I am, to reek Akuma havoc on this thread.

As I've likely said before: you've no reason to feel awful for telling him where he can f--k off to. DB mis-treated you (understatement) and there's no other way to look at it; with rationality. Do you think he feels awful for abusing you for all that time? All those times you need someone, and he put you through hell? All those times you need a kiss or a cuddle, and all he wanted was more; excessively? He can play the wounded soldier all he pleases, but I, personally, couldn't give a f--k; he f--ked up, not you, and it's that simple.

You feel like a cold heartless b---h? In what way or form were/are you a cold heartless b---h? Would a cold heartless b---h make me feel so understood, loved, appreciated, accepted, wanted, needed, hopeful, happy and crazy? No, is the answer. I've had the cold heartless b---h (or close enough to one) and believe me when I say, that I know what one of those are; you are not one of them.

You are not a bad person, and the idea is ludicrous; like the idea of the government being honest and fair.

I still have my own problems too, Nikki. I know you wouldn't actively (let alone maliciously) hurt me. I know that you're aware how you doing that to yourself would really, really hurt me and put me right off balance, as it would to you if I did. Point? We're in this boat together, so lets paddle together and I'm sure we'll get to a tropical island, eventually.

You'll be with me, soonish. 101 days.

I love you.

Your "dear" uh "dude", *smirks*
Pete
~xXx~