Sounds like you're trying to keep somewhat of a sense of humor about it all which helps...As you know, we fellow bipolars can appreciate the ups and downs--and 180's. Hang in there! I'm like you, I try to appreciate the manic times, because I can get a lot done. Of course, I have been to the hospital a bunch of times to get my meds stabilized, but that's par for the course, too. Keep hanging in there!