I was 101.4 this morning, so obviously that cookie and the extra cookie I had with a scoop of vanilla after dinner, did not affect my weight. It was all I could do to get out of bed this morning. I'm not sure why I was so anxious. I got up, ate breakfast (Kashi GoLean with half and half), then went back to bed until this afternoon. Read a little of Hawking's new book and ate lunch, protein shake and a small salad, and finally was able to turn on my computer. Not sure why it's so intimidating today. I'll probably squander the rest of my day playing video games just to keep my mind preoccupied. I told my partner last night that I believe I have an eating disorder. It was totally terrifying to do it because now he'll know why I eat how I do and check up on me to make sure I'm eating enough. Maybe that's why I was so anxious this morning. I've told the 2 key people in my life, so now I can't get away with it any more. He said he was starting to suspect I had one, but couldn't say it without me probably getting defensive. I'm glad it was I that told him. He's known other people with eating disorders. In fact, 2 of his kids from former marriages. So he knew what he was watching as I got more and more controlling of what I would put into my mouth. At least I don't throw up. I never throw up. I only restrict, but I know it's bad. Have to change my mindset on food and my body. Glad I told people before I got into only double digits. Thanks for your support PT52 I'm not sure I can give up exercising. Not yet anyway.