I was where you are right now about 5 months ago so I remember quite well how scary it is! The label is scary, new meds are scary,and trying to keep track of how you feel is ridiculously difficult (at least for me, I am forgetful... haha). But you figure things out! You learn that in order to have some control over this disease, you have to put in some effort to keep track of how you feel on a regular basis and you have to contact your pdoc immediately if things start getting bumpy. It's hard but also it will make your life better and more stable once you figure out meds. In the end, even though it may take a while and it may get frustrating (I'm still trying to find the right meds - it's quite the process!), things will work out!

Best of luck!
-L