Oh ((((((((Miss)))))))))))....isn't that the most awful feeling in the world? When I felt like that yesterday, I told T I *knew* it would change eventually but that I wanted a crystal ball so I would know when and how it would change. I'm sorry you're having all of those bad feelings.

Wow, a LOT happened in your life while T was gone. It totally makes sense that you would be angry and have a hard time reconnecting. I think it's hard to reconnect after a vacation anyhow, WITHOUT a bunch of giant life changing events.

Since you and I are both experts on ruptures (), I know that you and T will get though this. You will keep showing up and being brave and honest, and T will finally hear you and own his part, and the reconnection will happen. I hope it happens sooner rather than later. It's so so so so hard to be in that place.

to you (((((((((Miss))))))))))). I hope you feel better, soon.