parts of the day im fine then i start thinking about things , my daughter is quite quick to say im old i know this is a childs view but i havent thought i was getting old i will be forty next may, i am over weight i wonder y ppl like me sometimes i dont find things as funny as ppl around me and get cross quickly at the noise im trying not to im also trying to shut some of the way the children are out so they dont anoy me so much , as i dont want to be seen as the parent always telling them wat to do , i should learn to do things for me first but i dont like letting ppl down especially when they need me , i wish they would consider my feelings sometimes , i like the attentin from my husband but hes still in early stages of depression being treted so sometimes his mind wanders and then i get sad as i know hes thinking about the past 8mths and all that has happend im waitng for the day the past will be left there and we can concentrate on the future, also i allways get fed up towards xmas as moneys normally tight but thuis year its non exsitant, thanks for letting me moan