The mood chart's not been indicating good things lately. Things have been worse before, for sure. By far and for huge stretches of time. It's not like that, but...The problem is that I can't figure out what is causing it. Too many potential suspects for the latest shift.

Probably the two biggest possible causes, which started at much the same time...are switching to the generic Lamictal (the Teva lamotrigine) *and* job stress in the form of graveyard shifts (and the inherent split sleep patterns) and that the boss keeps changing the schedule and even the way the work days are referred to (will spare you). Long and short is that I often truly don't understand when I'm supposed to be working. As I'm one of those people who take work very seriously, this causes a LOT of stress. (Oh, and at best, I have huge problems perceiving time and what day it is, so you can imagine...) I do have one other factor, but that has remained a constant through the other changes, though it's not a positive, I'm sure.

I'd had such a nice stretch of overall good stability and now it's all over the place (but lower end of the chart) with extreme switches in short order. Generally in the form of instantaneous plummets or anxiety. And much more anxiety overall. Very frustrating. I tried to tell myself that it wasn't that different, but the mood chart says otherwise.

I've got an appt. in a week and a half and will bring it up, but in the meanwhile, it's hard to know how to think about it. None of the options I can see from here are appealing. Quit the job. As if. (Though I may concede to asking for non-graveyard...This sounds simple, yes? Not exactly. Day shift starts early, and I have a very hard time in those hours. Swing would make it so I'd rarely see my BF, who is my only person IRL, and a huge support element for me.) or go back to the brand med (about 7x as expensive and not exactly financially practical <understatement>). Will see what the PMHNP thinks of course, but in the meanwhile felt compelled to post about it, as it's the main BP thing going on for me atm.

Don't know that this needs any advice really, just felt like talking...

Edited to add that I've recently had the feeling that I'm on the edge of losing it. In what way? Dunno.