Today was a Huge day for me. As most of you already know, I was just recently diagnosed BP II only 2 weeks ago. I have been reading a book about it ,that my husband of course noticed but never mentioned. He likes to ignore problems and hope that they will just magically disapear. He has been in denial for years that there was something wrong with me.(We have been together for 21 yrs.) Huge financial disasters. He cannot stand the thought of anyone thinking that his life could be anything less than perfect. I on the other hand don't care at all what other people think of me.
On our way home from errands today, I made him stop at Dunkin Donuts and as we sat in the car with our dunkachinos ( yummy) I brought up the subject of my depression. In between crying and babbling I was finally able to say those words out loud- I am bipolar. It was such a relief to get it out. He didn't have too much to say except that he loves me and wants me to do whatever it takes to get better. He did ask if it was curable and I explained that it is manageable and that I need to find the right drug(s) that will work for me.
I want to thank all of you for all of your support,sharing your stories and advise. It gave me the strength that I needed today. I am incredibly grateful to be part of this online community. Joanie