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Originally Posted by madisgram
i'm sorry you feel so overwhelmed with your life. from what you wrote i'd say see a T if at all possible to help you sort out all this tangle of thoughts. u mentioned you don't trust T's. what is that about? that could be holding you back from getting the help you need. i don't believe you can sort all this out by yourself and you need an objective voice to assist you...now you are home again and your feelings are still not being validated. if you want to get better, and i think you do, then seek outside professional help and support near where u live.
are u on meds for your depression?
meanwhile we can be a support system but it sounds to me that you need "in person" help. i found that i needed to be responsible for getting the help i needed or i'd just stay in the same place...and it wasn't a good place for me to stay, jme.
oh and welcome to PC!!!
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Thanks for the response. I don't have an issue with therapists in USA, infact I saw one for 3 months. But I do have a problem seeing them in the country I am, there aren't a lot of them, and I did see a couple a while back and they pretty much sucked... I just don't trust they have the experience/knowledge to assist me, I'm worried if I see them I will come out more messed up.
Also, I'm angry at the fact that I was both emotionally abused by my family and sexually molested by a relative for so long during my adolescence, I'm more angry at the fact that now I have problems with intimacy and am unable to make friends. That's my main concern. I feel its not fair to me, I was innocent and that man sexually abused me, because of him, my whole life is tainted, that memory will never go away. Its making me so angry. and I feel like If i were grown up in a healthy family where people were allowed to communicate freely, maybe the sexual abuse could have been reduced. I'm just so angry at these 2 factors and I don't know what to do!
