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Originally Posted by madisgram
i'm sorry you feel so overwhelmed with your life. from what you wrote i'd say see a T if at all possible to help you sort out all this tangle of thoughts. u mentioned you don't trust T's. what is that about? that could be holding you back from getting the help you need. i don't believe you can sort all this out by yourself and you need an objective voice to assist you...now you are home again and your feelings are still not being validated. if you want to get better, and i think you do, then seek outside professional help and support near where u live.
are u on meds for your depression?
meanwhile we can be a support system but it sounds to me that you need "in person" help. i found that i needed to be responsible for getting the help i needed or i'd just stay in the same place...and it wasn't a good place for me to stay, jme.
oh and welcome to PC!!!
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Hi, Thanks for the response. I don't have an issue seeing a therapist in USA, infact I did for 3 months and it was good. But, the country I live in now, I just dont' feel comfortable seeing one here because I don't feel they are good and also I've been to 2 of them a while back and they pretty much sucked. I am afraid if I seek out help from them, they won't be up to date on the effects of abuse and also they might label me with something I might not have and I might come out more messed up.
The anger that I'm having issues with right now is due to 2 factors. I was raised in a dysfunctional family with tons of emotional abuse and I feel like if I were raised in a healthier environment, the sexual abuse would probably not have occured or the impact would have been low since there would be open communication. I never felt I could openly communicate with my family, I still don't. I also am angry that its not fair what happened to me, I was so innocent and naive, why me?
Third, now I have/will have all these problems (effects of abuse) due to this man who sexually abused me, i dont deserve any of these! I'm worried I can't open up in a relationship, have trouble wit intimacy and trust issues, I want to live a healthy and good life, these flashbacks are troubling me and so is lack of intimacy. Don't know how to deal with all this
