thank you all for your kind words and support,,im sorry if i sounded so needy,,,i never thought of myself as inspirational,,ty,,i seem pretty messed up to myself,,i hit a low point last night and am feeling a little more positive this morning,,i am so glad i found PC to vent some,,if not i dont know what i would do ..... another appointment tuesday with the one on one councelling for my ED... one step at a time