He survived Friday. I spoke to him yesterday. He felt better that his show on Friday went well. He needed something *good* to happen.

He hasn't talked to his friend yet, because it might just bring him down again - not that he was really 'up'.

I suggested that he talk to his T (doesn't have a pdoc). He told me that the last time he talked to his T and told her about the 2 friends, she told him - get this - that there are some people who do want to commit suicide and some actually succeed, and some don't. Out of those who don't will try again, and possibly keep on trying until he/she succeeds.

I just about fell off my chair when I heard that. Yes, that may be true but it certainly didn't help. No way! So I'm not sure if I should suggest him try talking to her again about the subject of suicide. She's ok with other stuff like feeling like a failure, or being indecisive, general depression or anxiety.

I almost suggested him changing his T, but it took him so long to get this one. Looking for another T right now would do him more harm than good. I guess I'll be his 'T' now regarding the sensitive topic.

Oh, and your suggestion of making him promise not to hurt himself on a short-term basis, is good. I try to check in on him everyday - email, phone, IM. I love him, and I want to get rid of that big heavy 'cloud' away from him. It's hard though - very hard.