Dear Queen,, one must admire your determination. remember, too, that there is a magnificent fund of resources in peer support, even if it is virtual, right here in PC. no professional i have met understands half as well as someone who has been thru it~! i hope you can find the time to come to chats, and just chew the bone with us, i have always enjoyed your company when you are here. and Congrats, on taking those firstest , hardest steps,, Gus