Byzantine- I don't think I've taken a serious look at my past. I'm probably afraid to admit what really happened in my life. I probably sugarcoat everything so I can be less bothered about taking the time to make myself a better person. I guess I have some work to do.
Yes. I lost a friend earlier this month, I heard to suicide, and I, at this point and for the most part, moved on. It's hard and weird all the same to think about his passing. There are so many questions that won't be answered.
I'm happy to say, though, I'm back to my good ol' ridiculous life.

Bridgie- You're right. Happiness isn't felt all the time, but sometimes, I become apprehensive. I anticipate the bad times to come, and there I go again, digging a ditch for stupid reasons. Again, I need to look back at the facts of the past, not only the good times (or sugarcoated ones..). Thanks. I hope I see the light more often too.

Thanks for the responses.