I understand about the emotional pain. It is a roller coaster ride. I can't seem to separate bipolar from BPD. I either hit bottom with despair or I have a highly energize anger. I never know where I be in hour. It cause a lot of thought about ending my life and wishing I wasn't here anymore. It doesn't matter which end I'm at I either in despair or angry. And that is no way to live. So I wish to hurt myself or end things as I know it. Is there any help because most doctors don't want spend the time with me to get these things straighten out. I feel lost.