Health update on James:

I visited the ICU this afternoon, washed his face and hands. I put some blistex on his lips as they get very dry when you are being ventilated. I sat by his bed, prayed for him, read him some Psalms and then left. It was all I could do. He is still in a coma, still unresponsive to pain.

Health update on Colleen:
I still haven't been to sleep. I can't hold anything down. I am using my walker poorly and falling a lot. I continue to ice down with my bags of frozen peas.
I managed to line up two emergency appointments for tomorrow, one with the anesthesiologists for pain injections so that I will be able to lay down and perhaps, not fall quiet as often. I called my pdoc at home this evening. I know I am in crisis. I am blessed that I have this gifted, caring professional in my corner. My relationship with him over the last seven years has transcended that of a patient/doctor relationship. I almost dare say that he chose to mentor me, has steered my recovery and strongly has influenced the direction in which I choose to evolve. He does not have any office hours available but agreed to meet with me at the medical library in light of the circumstances. I hung up the phone and cried with gratitude. It has been very rare to encounter ANYBODY in my life that cares enough about me to encourage me to grow and to tell me when I am screwing up. Most people just set up their lawn chairs and wait for the train wreck to happen when I am absolutely clueless that it is coming.
Where is the sense of impending doom when you need it?