It would make things so much easier if I could just skip the whole memories thing and just get on with it already. I feel terrible, my mood is up and down, I’m super stressed from work and everything else. I’m starting to not even have a social life, it’s turning into sitting at home staring into space when I’m not at work. The thing is I don’t really mind that. Even if I’m the least bit happy the urges are still there and I end up giving in. I feel helpless, like no matter what I do I can’t control myself.