(((((((((eileen)))))))))

When things are too hard for me to say, sometimes I will start by saying "I need to talk about something but it's too hard to say it". We'll talk about why it's so hard, etc...and sometimes just that process helps me find the courage to say whatever it is I thought I couldn't say.

Sometimes, if I feel like I have to get something out but I can't say the words, I will write it down for T, right there in session. I will say a sentence but write down the hard words, or I will write down the whole story. T and I have spent sessions just writing to each other.

Usually, when I have something really hard to say, it takes time. Especially early in telling my story....it would quite literally take me an entire session to say *one* sentence sometimes. The slowness of it made it feel like it would be a never ending process, but it got easier over time.

I think a good T understands how incredibly hard it is to say these things. For me, just knowing that he 'gets it" helps a little.

to you